Meditation on thee path ov Death joining Netzach and Tiphareth on thee Tree ov Life.
Control over Emotion based fears:
7 of Disks---Saturn in Taurus
Fear of failing, clouded thought, only obstacles can
be seen---Turtle in a shell---restriction of oneself
as the direct result of fear---resorting to old,
outmoded methods for dealing with "problems"
Remember: "Problems" belong to the mental plane only.
7-Netzach-Desires-Emotions-Lust of result-Blindness
Negative thoughts are very powerful and if nourished
and encouraged to grow will help to manifest the very
situation(s) feared---However, thee same is also true
of Positive thoughts.
Recognize thee fear(s), accept them---then you can let
the fear go. Overcoming the fear is the Goal. Positive
thinking, enjoying life---should Create the required
Energy to transmute unpleasant expectations and
experiences into Experiences of Joy.
Fear of letting go/ Fear of everything in life
crumbling away/ Fear of losing control/ Fear of loved
ones and friends turning against me or conspiring
against me/ Fear of not being loved or liked/ Fear of
not belonging or having no place in the world/ Fear of
believing in myself and the enjoyment of life/ Fear of
accepting Love, happiness. Joy and pleasure/ Fear of
being alone/ Fear of Flight.
Catholic Dogma and insecurity instilled within me as a
child against my own undeveloped Will. Now i have
decided to take My Own Will back as my Own and use it
as i Will:
A name of Power has been generated for my magickal
The effort itself seems to be the part that gets
easier---the changes themselves sometimes feel like a
band-aid being removed too quickly. The light created
as a result of the situation is Great---however the
pain that pre-seeds isnt quite as refreshing as body
piercing momentarily---However, the Jewel is much
7 of Swords --- Moon in Aquarius
Emotional over-reactions based on fear of
existence---never believing in any possible positive
outcome in any given situation--therefore allways
having a negative outlook. Becoming discouraged due to
negative thinking. Mental Plane only ---there may be
no physical representation to back up negative
thoughts---emotional instability retained thru
Emotive over-reactions continue to occur in general
situations. This is caused by me not believing in my
ability to affect positive change. The mind must
"believe" in something in order to "exist" so it shall
choose thee thought of Possibility as a remedy to the
sensation of "sitting on pins and needles" waiting for
disaster to strike.
The lesson gained from observing emotional
over-reactions should not only be the realization that
things may go wrong but also that everything
ultimately balances in physical existance--so,
technically everything has a 50/50 chance of occuring
with the deciding vote being cast by myself. Both
sides must always be accounted for---however any
further indulgence in emotion is merely that---an
indulgence and should be considered as nothing more.
Magic should not be confined to certain places, forms,
or practices. One should use these things to help one
become more perceptive and open to the total
possibility of Magick---which essentially appears to
lead to the ability to Be a Magickal
Environment---where every point of consciousness
merges into one Consciousness of Becoming---therefore
any energy directed intentionally, any act
performed---anything that occurs would be pure Magick.
7 of Cups---Venus in Scorpio
Over indulgence in emotions causing exaggerated
reactions---Keep splashing---one falls back into old
patterns of emotion based on not fully dealing with
unresolved issues---especially those of the ego.
Believing one's reactions to things are
important---therefore feeling "justified" within thee
reaction---taking full advantage of reacting to thee
point of gross over-indulgence.
One must accept the ego to let it go---to rid ones
self of importance and reliance on identity. If one
clings to no identity one can have no personal opinion
to defend---personal opinions are fun for "knocking
around" but have no more or less weight in the world
than anything else.
Dissapointment in an otherwise great idea due to a
slight alteration in plans---things not going exactly
how one would like---These are some of the control
issues of the ego---The inherent and incessant need to
be in control of situations 100% of the time--these
are references to old insecurity and are the Very
things i WILL to overcome.
7 of Wands---Mars in Leo
Control and Awareness of Desire and Emotion:
The realization of nothing outside of oneself.
The Goal is Channeling Will in purest form without
being tainted by emotion or desire
Realizing the point where desire and Will merge.
Challenge of resisting playing into emotional
"settings". Realization that any participation in emotionally
charged situations is, at core, an indulgence.
Realizing that the most popular "drama" of all is Life
and the responsibility and enjoyment that come with
Know All these Things
Being in an emotional situation and just stopping it,
moving on, walking away. This alone is a Power to
Dont be afraid to view your true psychology through
emotional filter. It seems the best way to thoroughly
release our "programming" handed to us by the State,
via our parents and, of course, the Church! When one
comes to the end of that struggle, life no longer
tainted by ghosts, regrets and repressions---that is
Liberation. When past experiences become things that
we have learned from and continue to grow from---no
longer are the demons that own and guide our decisions
of any consequence---they are illusions. The Life you
have willed upon incarnation will be returned to you
to live out as you so Will.
Mountain climbing always has its descent---its
downside, but the view from the top is superior. The
Quest of Magick shall never fail to continue on---the
ever spinning wheel of life---however, it is up to us
to give up our sitcoms and release our dramas---to
join thee Real Play of existence---larger than
oneself. The Natural order of things is much stronger
than the human "ideal"
So, when travelling down such psychological highways
and hauntings from the past occur---Remember Dorothy
and her yellow brick road---follow this serpentine
path of Will---if you stay on your path, you shall
naturally discover your own version of Life.